I look older !

Hi ... i look older. Yes.

I went to the hairdresser's today: and u know ... it's one of those times in my seemingly fast paced life that i get to look (as in really hv time to LOOK) at myself and my oval face etc ...

I look different ... my hairdresser used to tell me : o ... u look like a kid ... very boy-ish face ... when i told her i'm gettin' married, she laughed as if it's one of my silly jokes again ...

today she said my face lacked lustre!

God ... my Youth! What happened to my youth ?! my vitality ?! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

(ya ya right .... drama ma ma .... )

too bad i don't hv a pic to show u ... but ... seriously, i'm different.

Energy wise, lower. I look like i've got a lot of things on my plate. i look tired. i look worn. geez.

I look more grounded though. hmmmmmm less flaky. less bouncy. less "one-minute-here-another-minute there"

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Baby Johann is ... more awake daily now. He displays certain strategies to get what he wants ... laughs ....... wants to be carried and subtly shaken (as usual) and he looks extremly adorable ... goodness... his hair smells like Butter... ahaha. and in short, he's my new TOY !?

What a dad ... goodness.

He loves to listen to conversations between me and iris, puts him at ease. i sing to him about 1/2 an hour every day on the piano. he loves it.

He's got quite a bit of Wind in his stomach (as usual too) it's just that it's heart wrenching to see him twisting his face, while he's cryin' and tryin' to squeeze air out of his anus ....

to end off, here's a nice joke:

one of my friends Alvin, recent new father too, asked me: So Winz, how's life being a dad?!

I surprised myself with this answer:" Oh Great! as long as it keeps me grounded! "

hmmm ... nice answer. i like it. :)